Life of a Donut Man
He's come and gone...
What is it with magic that has been bothering me lately? I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I got around to thinking about religion as well too.
Like what would happen if Jesus actually came back? Who would believe him? I would place 20 bucks on the table that Jesus is in some asylum right now doped up on morphine and wondering why in the heck he even tried a second time.
And speaking of that, why do people consider magic evil? Jesus was able to perform all kinds of magic! He says that the people on earth have the same powers that he had, so why in the heck aren't we turning my tap water into wine yet? Either that or chocolate milk, or at least kool-aid. I'd rather not bathe in it, but whenever I'm thirsty I'd love to be able to turn on the faucet and get a glass of Brandy. I mean, if I can walk on water, and call it a miracle instead of magic, would that be ok?
How would we figure out who Jesus is when he came back anyway? I mean, if some bum came up one day, having a life altering vision, and called himself the second Moses and made the boston harbor split in two... how fast would the CIA lock him away and do tests on him? "i'm sorry sir, 'God made me do it' just isn't something we're willing to believe."
God I love this world.
Magically Delicious
Why can't this life have magic? I mean come on, this world would be so great if we could just shoot lightning bolts from our fingers. Fwoosh! Dude, your ass is on fire again! Where did the idea of magic come up from anyway? So many myths, so many legends.
There has got to be a base from some of it. It's even in religion. Water to wine, walking on water, raising from the grave. This is some wicked stuff going on! Ever think that the people in the bible wern't witnessing miracles, just put the wrong mushrooms in thier sphegetti that night? "So, this is wine jesus?" , "Uh, Yeah! It just looks clear, but I promise it's wine." Come on, jesus wasn't walking on water, it was just a puddle.
Anyway, wouldn't magic be cool? Perhaps not raising your friend from the dead, otherwise we'd have a Resident Evil thing happening, and then there would have to be laws.
-- No lightning bolts after 5:00 pm, for keeping the peace --
because we all know that lightning bolts are loud as hell. There would need to be some kind of tracking way for this magic too, so no one goes around burning everything down. But come to think about it, then we could have these epic battles for the Earth, the planet at stake! Legends would be born, and thusly we would have new stories for the parents to tell the kids at night.
We could save so much money too. Imagine no TV's. No gas heating, no electricity bills, water bills, labor costs would go down so much... hell, used right magic could pretty much make this world one of the best places to live I could think of.
Imagination
Here I am on nearly 30 hours of no sleep, punch drunk and I've been thinking.
I've always been one to adore imagination. I've written stories all my life, but I seriously wonder what life is like for others. What goes through thier minds. Like what goes through the mind of a little person? Everything's gigantic. We could only dream of giants, but they live around them every day. I've wanted to pit a little person aginst a basketball player. We could paint him blue, and call him Ymir, the frost giant, then give the little person a suit of viking armor and a sword/shield combo. Things would get interesting very quickly.
I've always tried to think how color blind people live. Imagine the world we live in now, so much color, so much talk about how vibrant and real to life television should be. (Go HD TV!) Wouldn't life be so much simpler in black and white? No worries about what color goes with what when you're dressing. None of the "Does this tie go with these pants?!" in the morning. No sir! Black with white... hmm, seems like a good idea to me.
What goes through the minds of animals? I have a dog, and I've heard of people owning dogs in places like New York. Could you imagine what these animals think when you have the guy who has you on a leash walks behind you to pick up your crap right after you drop it? Who's the master here again? You feed it, You clean up after it, you console it, help it when it's sick. Free room, free board, free toys, free entertainment... christ, they own us!
What goes through the mind of aliens watching that? When they come down, and happen to land in new york, don't be suprised when they walk up to our pets when they're looking for our leader. I'm sure this will provide for some interesting conversation one day.
That's enough for me...
Brillant!
I have found my favorite word, and it is Brillant.
I remember about 2 years ago, me and my brother were watching a dart contest on ESPN based out of England. The word Brillant was said so many times there that day then can be counted, to nearly everything that was done. Thusly me and my bro began mocking them, as is usually done with our household, out of humor.
"David! You opened that jar of jam! BRILLANT!!"
You can see how this can get a little out of hand.
I've been doing a little thinking lately, and the main topic has been relationships. I'm in a relationship right now going on a little over a year. The girl I'm with has a severe case of depression so it's a little difficult to deal with, but I continue on because of how I care about her. Thusly my thoughts span from this and previous relationships.
Why is it men can always get in trouble for everything? I could be sitting and watching TV, or playing on my Playstation2, and get in trouble. It's like I'm a pro at it! I don't even have to put out effort! Alot of men seem to have this problem that I speak of, and it's been making me very curious... thusly I've been noticing strange things.
Something that a woman says, which could mean no signifigant thing to her but purturbs the man, if recognized and stated upon ... will cause the man to get in trouble. How? This simple process.
1) Woman says rude thing
2) Man speaks up
3) Woman says "Oh, so now I'm rude?!"
4) Man is in trouble for calling woman rude.
Now, if a man were to do this... it would be impossible.
This simple formula, of what I'd like to call : T+(MW)=WC (Or the Woman Control Theory) can apply to many situations.
For example : Woman asks man what he's thinking, man believes that if he spoke honestly (I mean FULLY honestly) in an early relationship where there are still peeves and troubles that he would get in trouble, thusly he says things that aren't completely true.
This causes one of four (or more)situtations.
1) Woman goes on happily, only to find out later he lied. Man in trouble.
2) Woman sees through Man, Man in trouble.
3) Man cannot come up with anything, stalls : Woman sees through, Man in trouble because she believes Man is upset. (More on this later)
4) Man is HONEST : Man in trouble.
Now, if you have a good woman, then you don't have this situation arise, but for the most of us ... You know what I mean.
As for #3 in this situation : Why would the woman get mad at the man for being upset? She would believe that she is somehow inadaquate, and since the man didn't respond... he was the one who made her feel this way. There could be honest problems, but the man would still be in trouble for the fact that she is making him uncomfortable... make sense? Of course not.
What is the deal? Women have complete control over men if they wish to, they put us through some misery and we can't do anything to compete.
You know what I say?
BRILLANT!
Craigs List and some True Blog
Ok, so I tried [a href="http://www.Craigslist.com"]Craigs List[/a]. Thank you to Nat for this peice of advice, but sadly any job that it could provide is outside of my reach and expenses at this point and time.
It has a good bundle of jobs though, I used it a while when I lived out in California.
California was an interesting place, alot warmer than Tennessee is, of course. I actually fit in down there, being a bit of a different person (Though... everyones different in thier own way, I suppose)
I finally got what my grandfather was trying to tell me about being different. I supported individuality my entire life, and I am my own person because of it... but this unique person doesn't get far in life because he's so different. People don't give this person a chance.
When you dress one way, don't act suprised when you get the reaction you deserve. I was told this in so many different ways that it was beginning to get on my nerves. But when I moved back from Cali, where I was able to spread my wings a bit and be my own person, I was nearly turned away from the town that knew me so well. It's as if they had completely changed in my absense... until I realized I was the one who had changed.
Life is weird that way. You work your entire life to make yourself stick out, and if you take a risk like that you have a good chance to end up being shunned by everyone for being different. I am proud of those who stuck it out and became something great, but it's not for me at the moment.
Now I'm back in the redneck hills, where my long black hair, my gauged ears, peirced tongue and dark demenor, that used to mean I was my own person, now only means that I can't get any further than the front doors of a place, much less than get a job.
Radioshack was different in that aspect. I cut my hair, but they didn't mind my ears. This is saying something large, due to the fact you could litterally fit an index finger through my ear-ring holes.
My brother became so selfish when he didn't get a job. I can't believe that man would do that, then again I guess it's what I get for depending on someone else. He got a good lead on a job, and I hope he gets it. However, if he does I'm most likely to lose the job I'm about to get before they ever say yes due to the fact I won't have a way back and forth to said job.
On top of that, my wife's AC cord died today for her Laptop, which will cost us 80 bucks to get a new one, and I don't think it can be "repaired" for less... I'll ask while I'm down at radioshack though... I've got a question, I hope they have an answer.
So here's to everything and anything. I'm going at it differently this time. Instead of expecting people should understand me, I'm trying to understand all of them and conform to what they believe is right. Will it get me farther? Who knows... but right now, I really don't care.
- Vince
Hope Still Remains (Update!)
Alright, so here's what happened. The support I got helped, knowing that people wish I do well as well as me is a good thing for a guy in my position. (I live on a mountain for goodness sake, connection with the outside world is good. :O)
I drove with my brother (Who also applied) down to the place for the hiring fair/pre-interview, and showed up almost 2 hours early. However, they liked this even though they found it a bit out of the ordinary.
We were, of course, there before anyone else. We filled out the paperwork first, of course, and were the first into the pre-interview.
I did everything right. Maintained eye contact, firm handshake, was outgoing but not rude and didn't inturupt. Asked just enough questions to be informed but not to be pestering.
And I have a second interview.
However, my brother hasn't received a call yet.
This is causing some serious drama in this house. When I got the call yesterday, my brother got very steamed and disapointed.
I may be 20 years old, but due to probmes in my life that I wish not to explain I have yet to have a drivers licence or a car, however my brother does. It would be up to him to get me back to this interview today, yes... TODAY.
I'm very scared. My brother is not a selfish man, but he was so ticked off and disapointed I actually believe that he would delay taking me just so I wouldn't get the job so that I'd be in the same boat as him.
Why do I believe this? Here are the notations :
1) When I got the call, he didn't feel like being around me at all.
2) He was depressed, and barely moved (Until getting a call from someone, a friend who invited him over to her house. At which point he up and left)
3) Upon leaving he declared that he didn't know if he'd be home, and didn't feel like driving in Chattanooga.
The man is a good driver, I really hope that a problem like this doesn't arise. They said they didn't mind re-scheduling the interview if problems arised due to the fact they're so booked today... but I know that even with that kind of an invite, re-scheduling wouldn't go over well at all without some kind of perfect excuse... and even then it's 'if'y.
This could be bad... very bad, but also has the potential to be good. Time to cross my fingers again.
-- Edit : Oh, on a side note. I haven't touched a cigarette in almost 36 hours. Go me! I'm going to really quit this time, I have a good feeling about it.
- Vince
Hope still remains
Well I've got an interview with Radioshack tommarow. God I wish I could get something more than a retail job. I've got intermediate knowladge with computers and programming, as well as graphical design. I've got competent knowladge in just about anything, and a quick will to learn and a strong desire to proceede further in any job... but jeezus christ I can't get anywhere.
Still, I try. I'm pushing myself to keep going, because my family won't start if I don't put my foot out there to make that which I desire come true.
So wish me luck... I gotta waste a good 4-5 hours tommarow driving and sitting through intermissions/interviews to hope I get this minimum wage job... ugh.
Someone shoot me now. :O
- Vince
You all look like ants...
Tuesday (which was a while ago) is when I finally got into Tennessee. The trip was pretty uneventful. I was lucky to get a cigarette after 10 hours on two different planes though. Needless to say I was a little grumpy.
I haven't flown in a place since I was about 6 years old. It was pretty exciting for the most part. I was quite nervious to begin with, but then I figured... if I'm gonna die in a plane crash, I'm not gonna die with barf on my shirt. Screw that. So I just fell asleep most of the time.
We almost missed our bus after getting off the second plane, the only change over I was really sweating. We only had 1hr 20min to get from the airport to the bus station, so it was pretty hectic while we were waiting for our luggage off the plane. Thank god it was a Tuesday.
Apart from everything else, things are going pretty crappy at home. We're fixing to move soon (again, oigh!) because our grandfather (who own's the land, and rents out the place we live in) is being a real a-hole. So I get thrown in the middle of that battle, which had nothing to do with me in the first place... other than that... good times.
- Vince
Soon... very soon.
Well, things have wrapped up in California. We've purchased the tickets and leave in two days.
I'm packing things up mostly today, have a few things to take care of tommarow, and then on Tuesday it's on the plane I go with my woman.
It feels odd. This is the 13th time I've moved in my life. I hate moving so much, in the past two years alone I've moved about 5 times. You would think at 20 years old this wouldn't bother me as much anymore, but every time it happens I find myself more and more bothered and without a true reason for my anger.
The joyous thing is that after we go home, we should be moving out of that place within a month. Yay... :|
- Vince
I've got to think of something...(Brainstorm Session, feel free to comment)
Well as of this point and time I'm an [a href="http://www.thelosthaven.com"]advisor[/a] on one forum, and an [a href="http://www.sgcartoon.com"]administrator[/a] on another. I feel that it's a bit of a responsibility to promote activity on both forums, more-so where I'm an advisor.
So what should I do? Hmm..
[b][u]Thought #1 : Debates[/b][/u]
Debates are always fun, as long as you have clear headed people. On the Haven I know that we could have civil debates, or could have anyway. We've got alot new people since our last debate on the insane political problems with gay marrages (Which this one didn't turn out great, but we had a good debate), and I'm not sure how mature the new people are to debating.
On Cartoon, on the other hand, I've seen previous debate issues that got out of hand on the previous forums. Have they grown up since then?
Personally, a debate will go no matter what side I'm on. I'll purposely take the other side of what someone says just to have a filling debate where people believe it's active and all sides are accounted for, thusly no one's afraid to speak thier mind (Just so long as they speak it cleanly and without hostility, that is).
I just think that a debate over the dynamic beliefs of violence in videogames vs. the effects on children would go great, but I can see many ways that it could get out of hand. (Pointing fingers, cursing, anger, ect.) These are the things you avoid in a true debate, as you don't point fingers, you point out flaws (calmly) in the other persons argument and then point out the facts of yours.
I'll have to tweak this one out...
[b][u]Thought #2 : Would the awards work here too?[/b][/u]
On the Haven I helped create an awards system, this promoted a healthy bit of activity for a little while, but I had alot to work with there.
On Cartoon? I haven't a clue what I would award people for. We don't have too much on things that I could award people for, not to mention that the forum on Haven required alot of re-configuration and coding to allow the awards to be shown off, and I think Timbo has his hands full with this place right now.
Still, a good idea for down the road when we get a higher fan base...
[b][u]Thought #3 : What are we missing?[/b][/u]
I need to compare the two fora (Haven and Cartoon) to see what one has that the other doesn't. Combining forces, as it were, in the detail and content would boost activity and possibly population.
Haven is a private community, and thusly doesn't have many members (around 400 members, 100 of which are constantly active on the boards) but we have alot to discuss considering we go over a broad variety of games.
On Carton, however, the only pull in is the Flash's, which are going about bi-monthly to tri-monthly at this point. Thusly we don't have much in the ways of content. With more content, more activity will come.
[b][u]Thought #4 : There is no #4[/b][/u]
No, really. That's it. I'm done.
Poetic Justice
Reading over John's post made me want to write some poetry... some non crack head poetry mind you, but I still fancy myself an artist of some sort.
*ahem*
--Forever Wishing--
A solid light upon grains of romance
beems radience upon jewels
as I fall deep inside
A quick escaping sigh
disbelief yet contentment
not wanting to awaken
A meeting of lips
warm caress in my palm
jewels covered by calm
A wanting for excess
resisting any urge
enjoying the surreal
Don't let this end...
-------
Ok, so I'm not perfect... but oh well.
Killer Bunnies!
So I walked to the convience store today to pick up a pack of smokes. Walking back, what do I find? A friggin bunny! My friend decided to be animal hunter for the day and picked the thing up rather quickly, showing that the thing is tame and most likely belonged to someone.
We bring it home and name it Thumper, thanks to my girl falling completely in love with the dern thing. It is rather cute, I'll admit.
We're going to put up flyers today, and within two weeks, if no one says anything... we have three options. Sell it, Keep it, or make some good ol' wholesome rabbit stew.
I'm hoping for the stew. Mmm...
Guild Wars!
The expansion for Guild Wars comes out today, a free download that's supposed to be mostly post-accended character content.
All cool stuff, I suppose, but I'm still wondering what in the hell to do with Gwens Tapestry quest item. o.O
My Guild Wars characters have reached a mid level, lower than would be expected considering I bought the game shortly after it came out... but due to my indecisiveness and the fact I've been swaying in and out of the game due to overpowerness of a Warrior/Monk team ... the highest I've hit is level 11 (achieved in the past few days mind you, with my Ranger/Monk and Elementalist/Mesmer)
We'll see what happens today... much fun to be had no doubt.
Movement
Looks like a move is in the near future. I'm moving back to Tennessee with my future wife. I've got a month to move out of the place I'm in.
I won't get into what happened, simply because I don't feel like typing all that much. Let's just say it was bull and I've lost alot due to the fact of a 16 year old "Get everything she wants" princess b**ch.
But that's life. Can't win em all, can't fight fate, and can't fight the parents favorites.
Such things happen
It's about time I did a hate list, considering I'm bored and have time on my hands.
1) People who feel it's going to help to honk thier horn at me, who are late due to the fact they hit the snooze button too many times and I can't move due to a wreck two miles up.
2) People who think it's a good idea to slow down and stare at a wreck on the otherside of the freeway causing "Hate" number 1.
3) The fact that it costs for a wheelchair.
4) The fact we can figure out how to make a computer go two seconds faster loading programs, spend over 2 million dollers doing so, and still need "Charity" to feed starving villages/families.
5) The fact that looks will consider a persons eventual fate in life.
6) Women who think that men think about nothing but sex and beer.
7) Men who think about nothing but sex and beer.
8) People who think that a virus that will destroy a computer in 5 seconds is a "Cool Idea"
9) The fact that someone at a job can screw you over and toy you around due to the fact they've been there longer than you and "It's thier word over yours"
10) People who feel the need to raise thier voice because you have an opinion and don't want to hear it.
11) Board games that take more than 3 hours.
12) People who quit in the middle of a board game that they knew would last more than 3 hours, but started the game knowing they had to leave soon.
13) Chris Rock's comedy.
That is all. :O
Pushin it
So we have a friend that lives maybe 5 blocks down from us. This guy doesn't have a f***ing life! He has been over to this house every single day for the past two months. With the happenings in his every day this is not a small feat.
He gets up at 2am to commute to work for two hours, works for nine hours after that, commutes for two more hours to get home and then ALWAYS COMES OVER dispite the fact he has a wife and two year old son.
On a good day (For me) he'll stay about 5 hours, on a bad he'll come and go for about 7. I am getting sick of this fooking thorn in my side, but I let him keep comming around due to the fact he owes me 35 bucks.
The bad thing about this is the fact he's a black man, and I'm a white man... and he's touchy on this subject dispite the fact he considers us "Friends". I tell him anything sideways and he pulls the black card as if it was a debit and he wants smokes. (Which he never pays for anyway, why do you think he owes me 35 bucks?!)
I'm gonna go nuts.
Blog!
Finishing up with my D&D game tonight (6K exp away from level 12 yo! Woohoo!) I figured it was about time to write in the blog.
I've got a few things I want to put in here, so let's get to it.
[b][u]Delays...[/b][/u]
I'm getting sick of the delays my boss is putting on our job. I know it's not his fault that he can't be demanding and tell the owners of the Palm Springs area that the job deserves to us, and I understand that if I'm not working.. neither is he and that I'm not getting screwed here.
But what I can blame him for is for the past four days I've been pushed back, DAY BY DAY, on a work date to put a marbel tile into a house. This means that for the past four days I've had to ruin plans over and over for various things and I don't know what the hell is going to happen next. With the idea that I'll be getting 100 bucks a day under the table, I'll keep doing it.. but I'm not going to enjoy it.
[b][u]Dungeon but no dragon[/u][/b]
Tragg Trekk is my Halfling Rogue/Scout (6/5). He has been in a campaign revolving around dragons and the like (What other D&D game is there?) for the past... oh... about 4 months. We entered into a Dungeon today where every door I open, I have to search and disable a trap.
Now, I don't know if anyone else does this, but in my experience a Rogue will get an XP bonus for successfully finding and disabling a trap... all-be it a small one (100-300xp depending on DC) but still.
I found and disarmed 5 DC20 magical alarm traps on doors. One flame-jet (fire fingers) trap with a DC25 and craftily disabled (Not disarmed, mind you) stopped a petrification trap by putting a cloth over the eyelets (true rogue craftyness if you ask me).
I didn't get a damn bit of a bonus. Lovely!
[b][u]A grimm wake and brothers abound[/b][/u]
The family went to see "The Brothers Grimm" today. decent movie, although it could of been better. I really don't have much to say about it other than... it's worth a look if you've followed the tales, or you're 12 years old.
But the movie "Four Brothers" on the other hand is definately worth a look. Now I know some people that disagree with this movie for certen reasons without even seeing it.
One disagreement was the so called "Catch Phrase" of "They came home to bury thier mother... and her killer."
Come on, it's a "Revenge/Drama" movie. What other kind of catch phrase do you expect there to be?
The other disagreement that I laugh at is the meniacle words of a man who lives in this house. He's my soon to be Father in law, and the man talks in such foulable logic that it's laughable at times.
If you know anything about the movie, you know that the "Four Brothers" movie revolves around the four brothers being different races, two black and two white. He complains about this because he decides that they "Must do this so that the movie doesn't offend anyone and it's pollitically correct"
Dude, shut the hell up. The movie was written like that for certen key points in the script as well as a nice look at the imagination that THERE ARE MANY FAMILIES LIKE THAT AROUND THE WORLD.
Second was that he complained that it was a revenge movie itself.
Well, of course. If there's going to be a complaint, Bob (that's his name) can make it. And he will say it in such a tone that says if you say otherwise, a fight will happen... so you tend to listen because after living with him for a while you don't want to step on toes due to the fact that "HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT" and there's no proving him wrong. It's not worth the headache... trust me.
And that's all for me.
A new addiction
[a href="http://bisqwit.iki.fi/nesvideos/movies.cgi?rec=Y"]Oh my god...[/a] I just can't get enough of Speedplay games anymore. I just finished watching Castlevania 4 (Super Castlevania to some, SNES, 31 minutes!) and Rivercity Ransom (NES, 19 minutes!!!) and I'm downloading Megaman x2 (Entire game completed in 39 min. That's friggin INSANE considering he collects all power-up's!)
I need a job.
Delays and Advertisements. Gotta love it...
Well it seems that my wedding is being postponed. Not sure when it will actually be now, but it seems we don't have the fundage to actually finish off the ceremony.
How Sad..
[b][u]News Bullitan![/b][/u]
Episode 4 of [a href="http://www.sgcartoon.com"]Strategy Guide Cartoon[/a] has been released! It appeared on front page of [a href="http://www.newgrounds.com"]Newgrounds[/a] on 8/10/05. Go check it out! I'm sure you won't be disapointed.
[b][u]The Lost Haven[/u][/b]
[a href="http://www.thelosthaven.com"]The Lost Haven[/a] is looking for new members in the community. If you enjoy games online such as Guild Wars, Magic : the Gathering, Diablo 1 & 2 or just plain forum trolling and you'd like to meet some nice people, this is your place! Go check it out already!
[b][u]Magic : the Gathering[/u][/b]
Do you play M:tG? I do! I'm also part of an ongoing online tournament. If you're interested in playing competently with other people in this insanely addictive card game, leave me a message and I'll tell you how you can have all the action and excitement of a real life card collection without pinching your pennies.
- Vince
Games on the fly...
I think I play too many games at this point.
World of Warcraft, I've got about 5 or 6 characters on that.
Guild Wars, all four character slots are filled.
Working on
Star Ocen : Till the End Of Time
Utopia : By Swirve Games
Adventure Quest
And so many more.
But one downside to my gaming addiction is that now Zelda : Twilight Princess is going to be held back until mid 2006. Crap! I've had that thing reserved since May man!
