Lost
I don't know what to think. I'm lost, dazed and confused. You know those points in your life where you feel like you need a hug but know damn well it's not going to help? *sigh*
One of my greatest friends is very sick. Pardon me, my -Best- friend is very sick.. and the docter says it could be fatal. It's just absolutely dreadful...
I don't know what to do. There's nothing I CAN do and this feeling of helplessness is pathetic. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can barely breathe, I'm crying at the mere thought of it. I'm going insane. I rack my brain in every way for any way to help but I know there's nothing.
Nothing is for sure yet, but the doc admitted he was scared - this usually isn't a good sign, neh?
I love this girl. She and I have the closest relationship two people can have without sex or marrage, probably closer and there's just so much left undone/said.
I should of gone to be with her. I would of had time, now God knows if I'll ever really get to see her smile again. I may never get to hear her laugh, go clubbing with her, watch her drink me under the table or make men envious when she flirts and lies saying she's with me at a bar (a little fun game we've always had planned). I may never get to go to a football game with her, dance with her, hold her, comfort her (what comfort can I give now??).
This is so hard. So weird. I don't even know for sure and it's already affecting me like she's already gone. She's the only 'true' friend I've ever had (Anyone who wants to take offence to that can get bent, this isn't about you.) if I lost her... *sigh*
One of my greatest friends is very sick. Pardon me, my -Best- friend is very sick.. and the docter says it could be fatal. It's just absolutely dreadful...
I don't know what to do. There's nothing I CAN do and this feeling of helplessness is pathetic. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can barely breathe, I'm crying at the mere thought of it. I'm going insane. I rack my brain in every way for any way to help but I know there's nothing.
Nothing is for sure yet, but the doc admitted he was scared - this usually isn't a good sign, neh?
I love this girl. She and I have the closest relationship two people can have without sex or marrage, probably closer and there's just so much left undone/said.
I should of gone to be with her. I would of had time, now God knows if I'll ever really get to see her smile again. I may never get to hear her laugh, go clubbing with her, watch her drink me under the table or make men envious when she flirts and lies saying she's with me at a bar (a little fun game we've always had planned). I may never get to go to a football game with her, dance with her, hold her, comfort her (what comfort can I give now??).
This is so hard. So weird. I don't even know for sure and it's already affecting me like she's already gone. She's the only 'true' friend I've ever had (Anyone who wants to take offence to that can get bent, this isn't about you.) if I lost her... *sigh*
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Sharie on
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The best thing that you can do for yourself and for your friend is being there express how you feel. No one wants to be alone during a time when they need someone and the emptiness that you feel is a normal part of living. Having love for someone doesn’t mean that you are having any kind of relationship with him or her physically but a love that is deeper then most experience in a lifetime. The communication that you have with her should be honored. When we love someone deeply and they are facing a life change no matter what it is we go through similar feelings. But it is a fact that we go through the “What If’s. Kind of what you are going through right now. Your focus is on yourself and thinking about what it would be like with out her with you. Try to focus on her, give her all the support that is in your heart and let her know it. Even through tears let her know that you are there for her. Whatever the health reason she is undergoing to be going through it alone is horrid to have someone being there holding your hand is the greatest gift we can give to one another as being a friend.
I will keep her and you in my prayers.
In His Arms(o/)
Sharie
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The best thing that you can do for yourself and for your friend is being there express how you feel. No one wants to be alone during a time when they need someone and the emptiness that you feel is a normal part of living. Having love for someone doesn’t mean that you are having any kind of relationship with him or her physically but a love that is deeper then most experience in a lifetime. The communication that you have with her should be honored. When we love someone deeply and they are facing a life change no matter what it is we go through similar feelings. But it is a fact that we go through the “What If’s. Kind of what you are going through right now. Your focus is on yourself and thinking about what it would be like with out her with you. Try to focus on her, give her all the support that is in your heart and let her know it. Even through tears let her know that you are there for her. Whatever the health reason she is undergoing to be going through it alone is horrid to have someone being there holding your hand is the greatest gift we can give to one another as being a friend.
I will keep her and you in my prayers.
In His Arms(o/)
Sharie
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