Blending

There is a point in life where you get out the think pad and contemplate the places of your life that you excell at. I'm not suprised that when I took out my own pad and tuned up the old thinker that I wasn't able to come up with much more than computers and philosophy. I push out ideas that are, at some level, ground shaking.. but like any form of litterature it's all varied to an opinion.

What is it about me that does this? No, not think. Not blog. Reduce myself. I can come to a point where I finally find something that sticks out for me, but I include the world and think nothing more than "It'll just blend in." , and for some reason I'm ok with that. I don't want to be ok with that!

I see people all around me that shoot for the stars. They've got dreams, aspirations, visions and goals. I've got goals too, but every day I can turn around and wish to be someone else. If I think something that they do is a good idea, I immediately cross it off the 'possibilities' list for my own because I know someone would see it and say "That other guy did it first.".

Insecurity is abundant, but that's ok. Even though someone else has done it before, I believe I pull off the insecurity with my own flare and unique style.

The style of "I know it's a problem, but it'll just blend in."